Farewell

School is going to reopen tomorrow and I know there are some familiar faces are going to say farewell as I may not see them again. En, do u know that I always hope you can disappear in my view? Finally, I don't need to pray honestly to the shiniest lucky star during the peaceful night time, indeed my truly thought was opposite with the words which came out from my mouth. However, I think I wil be able to accept you as my friend like those days we used to have. Happy New Year to you, feel like knowing how was your days recently? 
Sheng, I saw your photo just now and checked your updates in facebook as I always did. I think this already be one of my habit since I used to like you in the past. I feel sad cause I can't see you in school anymore or may be I should say this is used to be my habit but now I need to change it. That's why I feel something are different start from tomorrow. To me, you are really a special person that I have never met. The way you speak, the way u walk , I think I will remember and you always attracts my eyes and ears chase after you when you are around me. By the way, do u know that the best angle of you is when you are holding your camera to try to take some best shots. That is really can't turn my head to other place. Hope you keep this habbit as long as you are still having your favourite dslr. Good bye. Hope to see you again in somewhere else.

梦无差

在孤独的夜晚里，我与凄美的旋律作为伴侣。音符的律动随着我悲鸣的叹气在我耳朵中徘徊，在那儿来来去去，不肯离开。心中的想法想脱口而出，却被我用一条无法解开的锁链紧紧套住。锁头在哪里？我不知道。钥匙在哪里？早就被我埋在深渊的心里，深得无论再怎样用力地去挖，都找不到。。。为什么父母总认为音乐家，蛋糕师等等都是学历不好的学生呢？难道永远只有“师”字牌的才是所谓的“知识人”？如果是这样，为什么父母要把含辛茹苦赚来的金钱送孩子们学这个学那个呢？不只是自己屈服在疲劳之下，连你们的心肝宝贝也受皮肉之苦。最后，你们却判断那不是“知识人”的职业，试问这样既费神又花费的才艺，却换来被你们弄得一文不值的结果。甘心吗？值得吗？不甘心也不值得。你们知道吗，对我们这些孩子们来说，有时候手艺并不只是单纯的手艺而已，它亦可以变成我们生命中不可或缺的一部分。其实并不是每个小孩都想当什么律师，老师，会计师之类的人物啊。偶尔也有一小部分的人想成为音乐家，室内设计师的人物。虽然并不是什么最会赚钱的人物，但也是一位有贡献的人士。正所谓：行行出状元，职业五分贵贱。凡事不去试试是不永远都不会知道事物的结果，而且人生并不像音乐播放机一样可以无数次地重复的播放，听腻了，去把cd换掉，就好了。但人生只有一次，青春也只有一次，初恋永远也只可以经历一次，无论你是有钱人或贫穷人。 爸爸，妈妈。。。有时候请你们慷慨地把手放开，让我们活出自我的人生，好吗？

A Night With Book

Something happened tonight. Something 's really special and unique, you might see it once in your life or you would never see it like some people who never saw the sun rise like me. One of my friend did ask me to go out and look up at the starry night. I didn't go out and ignored him too. In fact, I chose to continue lying on the bed and reading my favourite book. After I enjoyed reading the amazing novel( you're the apple of my eye), I took a short time to clean myself. I felt fresh and comfortable like breathing in some fresh air at the top of Himalaya Mountain and witnessed the raising of the eye of heaven. Back to the book, it was  more easy to understand than those english books I used to read or maybe I was not good enough in understanding the language. The book writer was excellent in describing the situation he used to experience somehow the way he wrote was kinda rude sometimes. The book was talking about school life, love, friendship and more. It wasn't a fiction but a reality life of the writer.
After I signed in to my facebook account, I saw something about the changes of moon which was going to happend tonight. However, I interested in reading the book and imagined the scene rather than going out to see the moon. Soon, I sat on a chair which was made of wood and pillow as my fingers were jumping here and there on the keyboard. I wish to write more but it's time to move out for heading to the dreamland. So, good night and hope to see the one I'm waiting for in the dreamland.

茶。怀

寂静的空中布满耀眼的星星，秀丽的月亮独自在那儿观看宇宙间的美色。而平凡的我则坐在新颖的电脑前，正在与键盘来个甜蜜般的谈情说爱。我终于摆脱了振恩与我之间拖拖拉拉，毫无结果的爱情悬崖。原来以前是自个儿一股傻劲地跌进了高深莫测的黑洞里，我选择在那儿徘徊，深信着你会回来。但现实与幻想是有区别的，是我误会了你的言语，以为还可以回到过去，但还是谢谢你曾经说过，别理会别人的眼光在学校陪我。你知道吗。。。那时侯，虽然我觉得有点受宠若惊，但心里还是觉得很窝心，很温暖仿佛在春天里自己被一团缤纷的花蕾包围住。很希望时间可以像我一样赖着不走，永远待在那儿快乐的时光。即使结果不是很好，我还是觉得很幸运我们曾经是如此地相爱。

最近爱上了喝茶，尤其是茉莉花茶。当喝下一口热热的花茶，心就不由自主地安定下来，脑袋也会识相地在平静的地带寻找停顿的空位。那感觉犹如我与这繁忙的世界隔开了，去了另一个时空似的。最近啊。。。也迷上了一个男生呢。。。是喜欢吗？还是只是单纯地迷恋？我不知道。只知道你的出现是我害羞的时候，你的字语是我快乐的时候，开始对你一切的点点滴滴感到有兴趣。不是说好在12月要约我出去吗？你。。。知道我是以怎样的心情等待的吗？是期待又稍微带点紧张的心情哦。。。所以快点选好地点与时间吧。

Do You Ever Knw That I Miss U So Much?

Today was another sunny day. The eye of heaven shone brightly in the blue sky, the ray of sun light passed through the car's window as I sat in the car and wished u to pass ur SPM with flying colour. Did u sneeze yeterday? I mentioned about u a lot to my best friend yesterday. Happiness, sadness and more... Do u still remember that we used to fall in love, we used to stick together like twins who are unable to be seperated? Although my mind clearly knw that everything has changed and it is impossible back to those days we used to have, I still miss u so much.

I'm so regret the choice that I used to make, may be it's really a mistaken and now I'm hopefully everything can back to normal. Can we?

选择

一间屋子很多人进进出出，很多脸孔在街上徘徊。有陌生的，也有熟悉的，而我的心则是在“继续”与“放弃”之间徘徊。最近发生了一些事情，让我的信心就在那犹如流星划过天空的一瞬间消失了。。。终于我做了一个选择，我选择离开你们，毕竟我们的想法实在是太不一样了。那些日子里，有开心的也有心酸的，我也从中受益良多，但问题始终还是解决不了。只要一天有佩元在，我的烦恼还是会跟她共存，当初的我可能真的做错了决定。对她们严厉，只想她们有更完美的演出，结果得来的只是认为我欺负她们了，自以为是的评语以及等等。我做事情，不祈求得到称赞但也没必要给我这样的评语吧。或许现在读着这篇日记的你们觉得我很蠢，为了一个这样的人放弃了自己最喜欢的东西。但我不打算就这样放弃，等她们表演完了，我会创造一个全新的组合，呈现一个更精彩的演出！Everlasting BSB，你们加油吧！


佩元啊。。。既然你那么希望带领人，那我把整个队送你，所有事情你拿主意。很多问题都是来自于你那张嘴巴，有时你少出点声，没人会把你当哑巴！我真的很不想跟你合作，对我来说你往往都会把事情搞砸，幸亏我的组反对你加入，而且你也不配进我的组！恭喜你，成功了影响宝儿。这次我给你一个考验，以便提醒你那张嘴，成功的话，就恭喜你！失败的话，与我无关了，你就漫漫地跟他们交代吧！

嫣珊。。。说真的自从我听了那些流言后，我开始对你我之间的友情动摇了。我一直以为你很了解我，我对你说的那番话，我以为你会懂其中的含义，但我还是太高估你了。这次真的是我太自以为是了。雯晴说得对，我真的做得太错了，所以我选择放弃你们。你们应该也比较高兴，毕竟再也没有人管制你们了。其实我很想问你，你真的认为那天我是在欺负你吗？？





 

What A Day

Today is saturday, a day with tuition. I remember this morning was warm, lovely and comfortable in its adolesence. I woke up at 9a.m to have a chinese tuition class and I was teaching by my mom's friend. The teacher was absolutely funny because I was the one who ask question. The funniest is when I was asking her a question, she answered me" I'm asking you now, why do you ask me?" At the moment, I don't know what should I reply and how should I reply the question that she asked. The one thing that I knew was I couldn't tease her, because of my mom. Her teaching was not bad yet chinese. I noticed she had no confident to answer those questions that I asked because of those words she used to answer me. I think this is the main reason.


I came back from tuition centre at 7:30p.m. I had a nice dinner with my family and my mom was the chef. Before that, I already had a dinner with my friends at KFC reastaurant. So, I ate not much in the dinner which was having with my family. After that, I asked a permission from my father for going to Genting with friends in November. At first, he was satisfied whatever I said. When I mentioned 5persons in one room, he looks scary and angry. From the words he used, I knew he was extremely angry but I don't know the reason he angry. I really don't understand why was he angry. These days, I don't even know how should I communicate with my family, especially my parents.


How should I make a choice in love? I knew cs loves me so much and he really knows how to take care of me. Kim told me she prefer cs more than ts and en, she has no worry to let cs takes care of me. But still, I don't think we'll fall in love. I think the main reason comes from me. I was kinda happy to chat with ts in msn just now, I did tell myself he is falling in love with a girl that I know who she is. I feel sorry to cs, even he doesn't know it. It doesn't mean I don't love him, but his ambition is absolutely like a fairy tale story. I don't rely on him. Few months ago, he told me he found a job for filling up his time after spm. But few weeks ago, he told me he cancelled the job because it has no relation with his ambition in the future. I had nothing to say after he told me this.