Friday, September 4, 2009

Feeling Of School Days

The first school day I was absent because of sick, but I felt happy. The reason is I not need to see someone that I afraid. Haiz.... At the same time, I also can't see him because of absent. Vanessa told me, he was absent too on that day. The next day I came school but can't see him at school. Finally, he came school the next day. I felt happy and good mood all the day..^_^

During the recess time, I was having breakfast with my friends. I forgot what does meiling said after her words, I wanted to laugh but my mouth was full of food. If I laugh....... I can't imagine what will happen next. Therefore, I forced myself don't laugh and ask meiling stop to make me laugh. Unfortunately, TS was passing beside us. He laughed to me while he was walking. Haizzzz.... I felt happy at the moment, but timid. Today, I asked kar wei, is it the best choice that I tell him my true feeling? Kar Wei disagree because she scare that I will get hurt. Haizzz~~~~~~

Haiz... History teacher(Pn. Harlina) changed places. Of course I am one of those "lucky persons". Actually, I feel quite happy at the moment because I not need sit near by the person that I fear. Of course, some of my friends were crying and angry. Jia Wen was crying on that day because of the teacher changed her place in front of the teacher seat and all Indian and Penjabi were sit around her. These days, she was cutting her hand and crying. I felt sad to her and I can felt the deeply painful in my heart. Beside that, she was begging me with tears to help her to ask the permission to change back her original place. I saw lonely and desperation in her eyes, although she said she will cut her hand if I fail the mission. But still I was so pity of her at the moment, even though she said like that to me.I am so scare not because of her threaten, it's because of me. I really scare my mission fail. I scare that I can't help her.

Hmmm....... How should I choose? Tell him my true feeling? Keep as a secret forever or let the fate choose?>_< I hope the GOD bless me to success my promise and the FATE give me the best answer.