Today is saturday, a day with tuition. I remember this morning was warm, lovely and comfortable in its adolesence. I woke up at 9a.m to have a chinese tuition class and I was teaching by my mom's friend. The teacher was absolutely funny because I was the one who ask question. The funniest is when I was asking her a question, she answered me" I'm asking you now, why do you ask me?" At the moment, I don't know what should I reply and how should I reply the question that she asked. The one thing that I knew was I couldn't tease her, because of my mom. Her teaching was not bad yet chinese. I noticed she had no confident to answer those questions that I asked because of those words she used to answer me. I think this is the main reason.
I came back from tuition centre at 7:30p.m. I had a nice dinner with my family and my mom was the chef. Before that, I already had a dinner with my friends at KFC reastaurant. So, I ate not much in the dinner which was having with my family. After that, I asked a permission from my father for going to Genting with friends in November. At first, he was satisfied whatever I said. When I mentioned 5persons in one room, he looks scary and angry. From the words he used, I knew he was extremely angry but I don't know the reason he angry. I really don't understand why was he angry. These days, I don't even know how should I communicate with my family, especially my parents.
How should I make a choice in love? I knew cs loves me so much and he really knows how to take care of me. Kim told me she prefer cs more than ts and en, she has no worry to let cs takes care of me. But still, I don't think we'll fall in love. I think the main reason comes from me. I was kinda happy to chat with ts in msn just now, I did tell myself he is falling in love with a girl that I know who she is. I feel sorry to cs, even he doesn't know it. It doesn't mean I don't love him, but his ambition is absolutely like a fairy tale story. I don't rely on him. Few months ago, he told me he found a job for filling up his time after spm. But few weeks ago, he told me he cancelled the job because it has no relation with his ambition in the future. I had nothing to say after he told me this.
Saturday, October 9, 2010
Thursday, October 7, 2010
。。。我很想离开这个家。。。
每个人都说“家”是一个很开心，很温软的地方，但为什么我越大就越不喜欢呢？最近我一直重复地问自己，也曾经很努力地寻找这个答案。最终，我还是找不到它。有时我宁愿去补习，也不愿待在家；宁愿在外面，也不想回家。以前的我很喜欢这个家，但最近的我已经不喜欢了。我甚至觉得待在这个家，很压力，只会悲伤而已。我只是想一个人待在家，但不想跟家人在一起。有时，我也想过如果我从没出世在这个家，那该有多好。如果上天没收了我的生命，也未必不是件好事。
有一天，我因为一些事情而跟父母吵架了。那一天，我们吵得很厉害。同时，我的心也更加封闭了。现在的我只想做一个他们开心就好的玩偶，反正说多了只会吵架而已。这一次的吵架，他们都觉得我就是那个罪毁祸首。或许我是，但他们有没有想过我只是需要一个拥抱而已，却换来了这样的代价。他们知道这是什么感觉吗？最近都在考试，压力很大，难免都会出错啊！难道不行吗？我不是一个没主意的人，只是心很乱，不知道要怎样做决定而已。这样都有错吗？
在这世界的原则还真不公平，父母可以毫无保留的伤害我们，残忍地摧毁我们软弱的心灵。我们却不可以，只要做了，都会被人认为这是不孝的行为。为什么？！难道就只因为他们生育我，养育我们，所以就有这个权利？！如果是这样的话，那我宁远离开他们又或者未曾来过这个世界。面对他们，我只有无奈，悲伤以及一些等等的负面情绪。我不是要很奢侈的要求，只是希望你们可以用心去听，去探索我另一面而已，不行吗？
这一次，我真的累了。。。我已经负担不了那承重的包裹了。。。无奈。。。压力。。。悲伤。。。一切的一切，我都想把他们统统都丢到一边去。累了，真的累了。。。
有一天，我因为一些事情而跟父母吵架了。那一天，我们吵得很厉害。同时，我的心也更加封闭了。现在的我只想做一个他们开心就好的玩偶，反正说多了只会吵架而已。这一次的吵架，他们都觉得我就是那个罪毁祸首。或许我是，但他们有没有想过我只是需要一个拥抱而已，却换来了这样的代价。他们知道这是什么感觉吗？最近都在考试，压力很大，难免都会出错啊！难道不行吗？我不是一个没主意的人，只是心很乱，不知道要怎样做决定而已。这样都有错吗？
在这世界的原则还真不公平，父母可以毫无保留的伤害我们，残忍地摧毁我们软弱的心灵。我们却不可以，只要做了，都会被人认为这是不孝的行为。为什么？！难道就只因为他们生育我，养育我们，所以就有这个权利？！如果是这样的话，那我宁远离开他们又或者未曾来过这个世界。面对他们，我只有无奈，悲伤以及一些等等的负面情绪。我不是要很奢侈的要求，只是希望你们可以用心去听，去探索我另一面而已，不行吗？
这一次，我真的累了。。。我已经负担不了那承重的包裹了。。。无奈。。。压力。。。悲伤。。。一切的一切，我都想把他们统统都丢到一边去。累了，真的累了。。。
Friday, March 26, 2010
How Should I Solve It?
I hate to talk to my parents recently. The worst is I don't want to talk to them not even a single word. To be honest, they really broke my heart after those stupid fighting. I feel desperate to them and I don't want to face them. I answered their question as short as I can and I feel nothing to say to them. I don't want to tell them about my secret or sadness anymore, cause they will mention it and break my heart when we fight. I think they noticed my weird acting and they asked me the reason, but I don't want to answer it. I seldom have my dinner at night because I am not in mood to have it. What and how should I do? Who can help me, pls? Anyone? HAIZzzz...
Our relationship is getting better now, we chat in msn but at school. Even though I answered "oo", he will also type some sentences. His answer is getting longer and longer. I felt happy for that, but I am worrying about something now. I realised he looks at shuyen sometimes, but I am not sure for that because I always stick with shuyen. I told this to kim, she suggested I should try to walk around him sometimes but I don't dare to do it. I don't knw why I can't face him so far? If he liked shuyen, I think I will be ok for that. HAIZzzz.....
Our relationship is getting better now, we chat in msn but at school. Even though I answered "oo", he will also type some sentences. His answer is getting longer and longer. I felt happy for that, but I am worrying about something now. I realised he looks at shuyen sometimes, but I am not sure for that because I always stick with shuyen. I told this to kim, she suggested I should try to walk around him sometimes but I don't dare to do it. I don't knw why I can't face him so far? If he liked shuyen, I think I will be ok for that. HAIZzzz.....
Thursday, March 18, 2010
~~~离别前的饯行~~~
今天跟一大班朋友出去玩，还蛮开心的。其实今天是帮sean饯行，我们去吃buffer，唱K还有在timesquare逛街。大概到了晚上八点，我们才肯回家。他即将移民去澳洲，以后要看到他，真的很难了。我们拍了很多照片，好让我们纪念彼此相处过的时间。虽然我对他的认识不久也不深，但我觉得他是一位值得交的男性朋友。他是我们班(3D)的班长，他很尽责，也很健谈。该玩的时候，他可以玩到很疯狂；该读书时，他比谁都认真。他真的是一位不错的班长，也是一位好朋友。在相处的过程中，我们都相处得还不错。
今天呢。。。我拍了很多照片。我好笑到走到哪儿，拍到哪儿。。。哈哈！无论今天谁有去，我都有拍。今天的出席人数还不错，有主角(sean)，xinjing，vanessa，kuokoon，pohshynn，kahching，looisun，yushin，karmun，shunyee，ginnie，sim，sim's friend(不懂是谁)，samantha，yoongxin还有我。最近都不懂怎样搞得？！第一个好友(amira)转去霹雳，这个更离谱，转去澳洲= ="将多人转，就是不见那些浑蛋转！HAIZZzzz...
我特地去跟sean拍合照，其实是另有目的啦。。。我想放在msn那边，看他会不会吃醋。我觉得应该不会(除非他也喜欢我啦)，但还是想试一试。同时可以让那个死horklick误会我有男朋友了，一举两得^^ 抱歉咯，班长~~~要把你摆上台。只希望不会做到反效果，就好了。昨天我还蛮开心的！我们聊了一下，但还是我主动找他啦。我问他，“不用睡吗？”他就说：“还有东西要做”。我听到时，还蛮心痛的，毕竟他每天都很迟才睡，又常生病。我就说：“噢噢，小心你的身体”他还回我：“你也是。”我当场开心到睡不着，就因为他简单又短略的关心。有时我还觉得自己蛮容易满足的，因为他很容易就可以操控我的情绪了。刚刚我还问他假期过得怎样，他说很闷。我就叫他去找朋友，他说没朋友。我说：“怎么可能，至少你还有lk跟horlick啊。”他就说：“那两个整天都忙着出去的。”那时的我真的很想跟他说，“我可以陪你啊！”但在现实里，我是不可能将说的。HAIZzzzz。。。现在的我只好尽量在假期里陪他咯。我真的很高兴，我跟他有将的进展。现在的我将高兴，不知现在的他是否也是将的心情呢？只希望我们以后的关系，只有有增无减^^
今天呢。。。我拍了很多照片。我好笑到走到哪儿，拍到哪儿。。。哈哈！无论今天谁有去，我都有拍。今天的出席人数还不错，有主角(sean)，xinjing，vanessa，kuokoon，pohshynn，kahching，looisun，yushin，karmun，shunyee，ginnie，sim，sim's friend(不懂是谁)，samantha，yoongxin还有我。最近都不懂怎样搞得？！第一个好友(amira)转去霹雳，这个更离谱，转去澳洲= ="将多人转，就是不见那些浑蛋转！HAIZZzzz...
我特地去跟sean拍合照，其实是另有目的啦。。。我想放在msn那边，看他会不会吃醋。我觉得应该不会(除非他也喜欢我啦)，但还是想试一试。同时可以让那个死horklick误会我有男朋友了，一举两得^^ 抱歉咯，班长~~~要把你摆上台。只希望不会做到反效果，就好了。昨天我还蛮开心的！我们聊了一下，但还是我主动找他啦。我问他，“不用睡吗？”他就说：“还有东西要做”。我听到时，还蛮心痛的，毕竟他每天都很迟才睡，又常生病。我就说：“噢噢，小心你的身体”他还回我：“你也是。”我当场开心到睡不着，就因为他简单又短略的关心。有时我还觉得自己蛮容易满足的，因为他很容易就可以操控我的情绪了。刚刚我还问他假期过得怎样，他说很闷。我就叫他去找朋友，他说没朋友。我说：“怎么可能，至少你还有lk跟horlick啊。”他就说：“那两个整天都忙着出去的。”那时的我真的很想跟他说，“我可以陪你啊！”但在现实里，我是不可能将说的。HAIZzzzz。。。现在的我只好尽量在假期里陪他咯。我真的很高兴，我跟他有将的进展。现在的我将高兴，不知现在的他是否也是将的心情呢？只希望我们以后的关系，只有有增无减^^
Monday, March 15, 2010
Having A Fight Recently
I moved to a new room recently. At the same time, I had a fight with my mom because of that room too. She moved my ex-room's things with herself. She did asked me to clean my things in that room, but I was really tired and I had a lot of homework during the holiday. I knew it was a reason to help myself get out of it but she never knew my feeling when she was scolding me. I always tell her about my sadness at school or some trouble that I don't know how to solve it. When she scolded me, she was using words of abuse and some words that will break my heart.
She keeps moving things into my new room and old room and I disliked it. She is easy to mad recently, is it because of she's going to be older and older in the future? I never knew the answer, she is the only one who knew the answer. I act cool in front of her and I always answer the questions which she asked as short as I can. I know it's not a good habbit but I can't control myself. Sometimes she scold me with the words of abuse, I am ok with that but mention my sadness. She said," you really have some problems with your attitude thats why your classmates hate you!", "don't tell me you trouble or sadness" and "don't tell me who hates you at school or anything". When I heard those words, it broke my heart and I cried sorrowly during these fews night.
I felt desperation and I just cried, I don't know what to do and how should I do. Even though she was mad, she also should not scold me like that. From that moment, I started to not telling her anything about me cause I don't want to get hurt again and again. I haven't settle the problems of ml and lk but my mom broke my heart again. I thought the meaning of "HOME" is to give a person full of warm, safe and happy. Now, what I get in this home?! I just get sad and lonely. There is no any different whether I am at school or at home, I am still getting hurt from them. It's just worse even worse when I tell them my secret or true feeling. I really can't take it anymore in this home. If I had the choice to move out, I think I will...
Yesterday was his birthday but I was not giving him a present, even though a simple wish"happy birthday". I think he won't care cause he knew a lot of beauty females' friends. I asked vanessa helped me said "happy birthday" to him and asked vanessa not to tell him I am the one who asked she to say. The next day, vanessa asked me ,"why don't you wish him yourself?" I don't knw why and I don't knw how to answer her question. Maybe I just don't knw how to talk to him or anything. It's been a long time that we are not talking at school or chat in msn. I don't knw how long and when it will end? I hope the GOD will help us to solve the problem. I am keeping fit because of him and want to get better whatever"inside" or "outside".
TO: Someone That I Missed
>>>>>>>>>HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY<<<<<<<<<
Hope you will keep smiling during all the days and times, keep up the good work in study. Hope you will become more handsome... XD
She keeps moving things into my new room and old room and I disliked it. She is easy to mad recently, is it because of she's going to be older and older in the future? I never knew the answer, she is the only one who knew the answer. I act cool in front of her and I always answer the questions which she asked as short as I can. I know it's not a good habbit but I can't control myself. Sometimes she scold me with the words of abuse, I am ok with that but mention my sadness. She said," you really have some problems with your attitude thats why your classmates hate you!", "don't tell me you trouble or sadness" and "don't tell me who hates you at school or anything". When I heard those words, it broke my heart and I cried sorrowly during these fews night.
I felt desperation and I just cried, I don't know what to do and how should I do. Even though she was mad, she also should not scold me like that. From that moment, I started to not telling her anything about me cause I don't want to get hurt again and again. I haven't settle the problems of ml and lk but my mom broke my heart again. I thought the meaning of "HOME" is to give a person full of warm, safe and happy. Now, what I get in this home?! I just get sad and lonely. There is no any different whether I am at school or at home, I am still getting hurt from them. It's just worse even worse when I tell them my secret or true feeling. I really can't take it anymore in this home. If I had the choice to move out, I think I will...
Yesterday was his birthday but I was not giving him a present, even though a simple wish"happy birthday". I think he won't care cause he knew a lot of beauty females' friends. I asked vanessa helped me said "happy birthday" to him and asked vanessa not to tell him I am the one who asked she to say. The next day, vanessa asked me ,"why don't you wish him yourself?" I don't knw why and I don't knw how to answer her question. Maybe I just don't knw how to talk to him or anything. It's been a long time that we are not talking at school or chat in msn. I don't knw how long and when it will end? I hope the GOD will help us to solve the problem. I am keeping fit because of him and want to get better whatever"inside" or "outside".
TO: Someone That I Missed
Sunday, March 7, 2010
没人会听见的破碎声。。。
我到底要怎样才能不再想ml,lk跟horlick的事？！我的心真的很痛，也很彻底地碎了。为什么每次当我肯相信人时，都有人背叛我？一次又一次的伤害，只会让我把心封闭起来，也让我更想转校了。现在的我不知道要怎样面对他们？ml还邀请我去她的生日会，我不想去，更好笑的是lp问我：“不怕他生气？”。那我很想问回他，当初ml问lk的时候那问题，有没有想过现在的我，心有多痛，多难受。。。因为他们，我几乎每晚都在哭，也不想去学校了。拜托他讲话的时候，可不可以也把脑袋装进去。他到底知不知道，他所谓的无心只会让人受伤？！我没想过他既然会跑去跟sl说：“你的男友在沟我？”他以为他自己开玩笑，没事情，但他有没有在那男生的女友的立场想过这种玩笑会伤害到人？！他到底几时才肯好好地控制他那张嘴巴！
ml跟lk只是干兄妹，但我不明白他们为什么要将对我？！无论开玩笑还是说话的时候，都不经过脑袋的吗？！lk听到horlick跟我讲电话，也就算了，但没必要跟回我讲吧？！还跟我讲他几时，在哪里打给我。当他讲的时候，我真的不想知道，也不知道要把面子往哪里摆？我觉得我很没有隐私，就好像没穿衣一样。难道lk嫌他整天拿horlick来开我玩笑，还不够吗？他是不是很想我跟他反目成仇人，他才甘愿？！如果是的话，我可以成全他。有几次我跟horlick传简讯的内容，lk又跟回我讲。我真的觉得很丢脸啊！！！！
我猜lk应该把很多事情都告诉了他吧？！幸运的是他不像lk将，跟回我说。要不然，我真的会顶不顺。有时我在想，如果他真的是在学校看我的话，我们是否还有说话的机会呢？神啊~~~~请快点给我答案吧
ml跟lk只是干兄妹，但我不明白他们为什么要将对我？！无论开玩笑还是说话的时候，都不经过脑袋的吗？！lk听到horlick跟我讲电话，也就算了，但没必要跟回我讲吧？！还跟我讲他几时，在哪里打给我。当他讲的时候，我真的不想知道，也不知道要把面子往哪里摆？我觉得我很没有隐私，就好像没穿衣一样。难道lk嫌他整天拿horlick来开我玩笑，还不够吗？他是不是很想我跟他反目成仇人，他才甘愿？！如果是的话，我可以成全他。有几次我跟horlick传简讯的内容，lk又跟回我讲。我真的觉得很丢脸啊！！！！
我猜lk应该把很多事情都告诉了他吧？！幸运的是他不像lk将，跟回我说。要不然，我真的会顶不顺。有时我在想，如果他真的是在学校看我的话，我们是否还有说话的机会呢？神啊~~~~请快点给我答案吧
Friday, March 5, 2010
Basketball Training
I feel sad in this week because of some stuff. By the way, I fell down at school on Thursday and my knees was very pain. Today we had a basketball competition to choose 14 persons in our team that may join the basketball competition which is coming soon in April. At the begining, junior versus junior(except kim, peisee and me), I realised most of us improved a lot. Especially yen shan,she really worked hard during the basketball training. I noticed Ling en has a talent of sport, even though she is new, but her skill and speed is good. To be honest, I am quite envy of her talent. I need to work harder from now on, hahaaha~~~
I hate ml, lk and horlick now. I told ml about my secret last year. I thought she can be trusted, but I was wrong. I was feeling suspicious since last year. Why lk guessed he is the person I like without any hesitate?! Finally I knew the answer, it was ml told him. I remember I already told her not to tell anyone. I did ask her, did you tell anyone? She answered no. One day, she asked lk, are you knowing something? lk said, is it about ts and ly? She answered yes. I can't believe she said yes. Luckily I was not at there or else I will slap her or scold her. Today, she invited sy and me go to her house on 4 of April for her birthday party. Our answers are no, but we haven't tell her the answer, in deed.
The next is lk and horlick. Lk asked me something about horlick and he knew when horlick gave me a call? He remembered clearier than me, I don't even remember the day?! He keeps calling me"yenyen", because horlick always call me like that. I hate it and I am quite sure lk saw all those message in horlick's phone. After I knew, I was really angry because of that, but can he doesn't tell to me?! It's felt shy and I felt like I had not privacy. I hate this kind of feeling, I don't understand why ml and lk are same. Both of them were hurting me and it made me cried sadly. I hope I never knew ml, lk and horlick...
Did they knw it's really broke my heart and it made me cried every night. I realised lk is quite good in acting. When I was with kim, he acted like very friendly and passion. When I was alone or with other friends, he acted like he doesn't knw me or anything?! Before that, he was not like that, but I don't care anymore as long as he keeps away from kim.
Luckily, he was absent yesterday. If not, I don't knw what kind of emoction I can give him?! He came to school today. When I was around him, I felt like he was looking at me. I still can't comfirm for that. I wander when I can confirm it?! HAIZZzzzz~~~
I hate ml, lk and horlick now. I told ml about my secret last year. I thought she can be trusted, but I was wrong. I was feeling suspicious since last year. Why lk guessed he is the person I like without any hesitate?! Finally I knew the answer, it was ml told him. I remember I already told her not to tell anyone. I did ask her, did you tell anyone? She answered no. One day, she asked lk, are you knowing something? lk said, is it about ts and ly? She answered yes. I can't believe she said yes. Luckily I was not at there or else I will slap her or scold her. Today, she invited sy and me go to her house on 4 of April for her birthday party. Our answers are no, but we haven't tell her the answer, in deed.
The next is lk and horlick. Lk asked me something about horlick and he knew when horlick gave me a call? He remembered clearier than me, I don't even remember the day?! He keeps calling me"yenyen", because horlick always call me like that. I hate it and I am quite sure lk saw all those message in horlick's phone. After I knew, I was really angry because of that, but can he doesn't tell to me?! It's felt shy and I felt like I had not privacy. I hate this kind of feeling, I don't understand why ml and lk are same. Both of them were hurting me and it made me cried sadly. I hope I never knew ml, lk and horlick...
Did they knw it's really broke my heart and it made me cried every night. I realised lk is quite good in acting. When I was with kim, he acted like very friendly and passion. When I was alone or with other friends, he acted like he doesn't knw me or anything?! Before that, he was not like that, but I don't care anymore as long as he keeps away from kim.
Luckily, he was absent yesterday. If not, I don't knw what kind of emoction I can give him?! He came to school today. When I was around him, I felt like he was looking at me. I still can't comfirm for that. I wander when I can confirm it?! HAIZZzzzz~~~
Monday, March 1, 2010
~~~偷懒日~~~
今天是星期一，我又偷懒，不去学校了。上个星期一是为了拜天公，所以不去学校；没想到这个星期一是因为上云顶，很晚才回到家。我爸怕我上课会睡着，所以就不叫我起来了。虽然听少了一天的课，但我觉得很值得。一来可以休息，二来可以做功课。没上一两天的课，应不会有很多功课吧。刚刚问了looi今天的功课，我觉得还好啦。。。不会很多，也不会很少。
想起昨天的事，就觉得很开心，也很棒！现在回想起来，我跟他们(珊，雯，杰)都很久没见面了。他们三个是姐弟妹，大的那个就有一点弱智，第二的跟我比较熟，第三的小我一岁，但比我还成熟。我们平均每年只见一次面，毕竟他们都住在怡保。当我跟他们在一起时，真的很开心。我又有一个美好的回忆了！哈哈~~~我们也拍了很多照片，真高兴！！！
玩到"碰碰车"时，我还满生气的！有三个外人一直找我来撞，除此之外我还要应付雯跟杰，而且我还要载着珊，她说她不敢驾，那我不是好心载她咯。没想到将倒霉，一直给人撞。珊的体积比较大，然后她坐的时候，又把脚开大。搞到我被撞的时候，脚很痛。玩的时候，雯跟杰发现我脸黑黑，就问我怎么了？！但我没说，毕近在玩着。到最后，我简直就是气到不驾了！让那三个外人撞个够，谁知道他们撞到我们四个连在一起，动不了了。只要我摆一下车子，就可以动了，但我就是偏不动。他们看着我，我又看一下他们，然后就不懒得理他们了。那时的我，还真想说活该！结束时，杰跟雯就问我怎么了？！我就跟他们说了，然后杰就大声说：“谁？在哪里？我帮你报仇！”我心里很高兴，然后就跟他说算了吧。玩的同时，我有跟horlick和文明传简讯。horlick还说我怎么可以一心将多用，我也没想到我也可以将的。嘻嘻。。。除此之外，云顶放的烟花，都好美哦。。。应该很贵吧。。。哈哈！
看烟花的时候，雯还跟我讲，如果跟男朋友看，应该很浪漫吧？！我心里顿时想起了他，我觉得如果真的会发生的话，应该也不错吧。刚刚跟他聊了一下天，但没想到先说"哦"的人，既然是我。老实说，我不是很想去学校，至少可以不用看到他。我很想看他，但是偷偷的看。当他望过来时，我的头又别另一边去了。我不明白为什么我会躲他，但又想跟他聊聊天。我很想知道我们到底会不会有当面说话的一天呢？希望会有这一天的到来吧。。。我跟他的沟通问题到底要怎样，几时才能解决呢？HAIZZzzz......
想起昨天的事，就觉得很开心，也很棒！现在回想起来，我跟他们(珊，雯，杰)都很久没见面了。他们三个是姐弟妹，大的那个就有一点弱智，第二的跟我比较熟，第三的小我一岁，但比我还成熟。我们平均每年只见一次面，毕竟他们都住在怡保。当我跟他们在一起时，真的很开心。我又有一个美好的回忆了！哈哈~~~我们也拍了很多照片，真高兴！！！
玩到"碰碰车"时，我还满生气的！有三个外人一直找我来撞，除此之外我还要应付雯跟杰，而且我还要载着珊，她说她不敢驾，那我不是好心载她咯。没想到将倒霉，一直给人撞。珊的体积比较大，然后她坐的时候，又把脚开大。搞到我被撞的时候，脚很痛。玩的时候，雯跟杰发现我脸黑黑，就问我怎么了？！但我没说，毕近在玩着。到最后，我简直就是气到不驾了！让那三个外人撞个够，谁知道他们撞到我们四个连在一起，动不了了。只要我摆一下车子，就可以动了，但我就是偏不动。他们看着我，我又看一下他们，然后就不懒得理他们了。那时的我，还真想说活该！结束时，杰跟雯就问我怎么了？！我就跟他们说了，然后杰就大声说：“谁？在哪里？我帮你报仇！”我心里很高兴，然后就跟他说算了吧。玩的同时，我有跟horlick和文明传简讯。horlick还说我怎么可以一心将多用，我也没想到我也可以将的。嘻嘻。。。除此之外，云顶放的烟花，都好美哦。。。应该很贵吧。。。哈哈！
看烟花的时候，雯还跟我讲，如果跟男朋友看，应该很浪漫吧？！我心里顿时想起了他，我觉得如果真的会发生的话，应该也不错吧。刚刚跟他聊了一下天，但没想到先说"哦"的人，既然是我。老实说，我不是很想去学校，至少可以不用看到他。我很想看他，但是偷偷的看。当他望过来时，我的头又别另一边去了。我不明白为什么我会躲他，但又想跟他聊聊天。我很想知道我们到底会不会有当面说话的一天呢？希望会有这一天的到来吧。。。我跟他的沟通问题到底要怎样，几时才能解决呢？HAIZZzzz......
Friday, February 26, 2010
A Rainy Day
It is raining now and I am typing my blog to make myself feel better. When I am bad in mood, I always type my blog to make me feel better, but I will also share my happiness sometimes. Actually, Jeremy and Sean should come to my house but they can't. Jeremy said he no transpot and I don't knw the reason of Sean. Luckily, my third lp was coming to my house and we played ps2 as always. We had a lot of fun, even though it's a short time. HAIZZZzzz~~~ today's a public holiday, but still I need to go to tuition. It's quite boring for that.
I missed him a lot and I had a dream of him last night. In the dream, we talked to each other and we were laughing while we were talking. Suddenly, I fell asleep and he was looking at me. He touched me forehead while I was sleeping and I slept on his leg. After I woke up, I felt happy and sweet for that dream but I know it wouldn't happened in our reality life... But still thanks for the God gave me a nice, sweet dream. I will appreciate it as my precious.
这段日子里。。。
最近的我都在为家里的事而哭，让我觉得有点不想待在这个家了。虽然自己的潜意识里知道将的想法不好，但我真的控制不了自己。我没想过家里带给我的伤害既然比他还大。前几天我跟我爸大吵一架，吵到我连晚饭都不想去吃。我爸以为我是因为他没经我同意就开我红包而生气，但他一定没想到我是因为他所用的词语而生气吧。那天的我真的感到很失望，也很绝望。我一直压抑着我自己，到底是为了谁？！那时的我在想为什么要把真正的自己给埋没？！我一直很努力把黑暗的自己收起来，但爸所用的词语真的让我很心痛。我在想如果那时有谁给我一个拥抱，我一定会在那个人的怀里哭个够。每次我都好希望在我心情低落时，有个朋友可以给我一个拥抱，但我知道那是不可能会发生的。。。
今天学校举行越野赛跑，还瞒好玩的。虽然有点累啦，但很值得。我对自己今年的表现很失望，简直就是不满意。我的lp跟lg都得到奖牌，但我却落单。我对lg发誓我明年一定要跟他们一起拿到奖牌！我听choo跟dumb说，lg跑回来的时候，她的嘴唇是白的。我听到时，我有点担心。明知道自己。。。干嘛还要这么拼？！虽然很羡慕他们得到奖牌，但还是恭喜你们。明年一定会跟他们一起拿的！顺便一提，我收了一个干弟弟，还瞒高兴的说。但ml吃醋了，现在我都不懂要怎么办才好？！HAIZZZzzz...跟干弟弟和他那些朋友在一起时，我觉得好高兴哦~~~他还请我喝了一杯水^^
我跟lk又不懂怎么了？！我们好久没聊天了，他搞到我好像做了什么对不起他的事将？！我们大概有一个月没聊天了，这次真的破了大记录。通常我们都是有msn或者在学校闹来闹去的，但最近少了他，还真有点闷。现在回想起来，好像是我自从send了那封信息给他后，就变成将了。HAIZZzzz~~~那算不算是我的错呢？！我觉得他好会演戏，在lg面前跟我就好像跟平常没两样，但私底下跟我的时候，他就不理我了。连打招呼都没有，以往都是他主动找我的，但最近都没有了。。。真搞不懂他
今天我也好惊讶哦。他既然有来上课耶！老实说，我心里真的好高兴哦~~~还以为他是来跑的，但原来他是来拍照的。不知道他今天拍得怎样？！真想看，但应该都跟以前一样好看吧？！我觉得今天我又做了一件很白痴的事。在食堂时，我和他都还算在附近。所以我特地跟那些干弟玩得比较亲，看他会不会吃醋？！但。。。那怎么可能啊？！现在回想起来，我哪个举动还蛮天真白痴的= =" 哈哈~~~
今天学校举行越野赛跑，还瞒好玩的。虽然有点累啦，但很值得。我对自己今年的表现很失望，简直就是不满意。我的lp跟lg都得到奖牌，但我却落单。我对lg发誓我明年一定要跟他们一起拿到奖牌！我听choo跟dumb说，lg跑回来的时候，她的嘴唇是白的。我听到时，我有点担心。明知道自己。。。干嘛还要这么拼？！虽然很羡慕他们得到奖牌，但还是恭喜你们。明年一定会跟他们一起拿的！顺便一提，我收了一个干弟弟，还瞒高兴的说。但ml吃醋了，现在我都不懂要怎么办才好？！HAIZZZzzz...跟干弟弟和他那些朋友在一起时，我觉得好高兴哦~~~他还请我喝了一杯水^^
我跟lk又不懂怎么了？！我们好久没聊天了，他搞到我好像做了什么对不起他的事将？！我们大概有一个月没聊天了，这次真的破了大记录。通常我们都是有msn或者在学校闹来闹去的，但最近少了他，还真有点闷。现在回想起来，好像是我自从send了那封信息给他后，就变成将了。HAIZZzzz~~~那算不算是我的错呢？！我觉得他好会演戏，在lg面前跟我就好像跟平常没两样，但私底下跟我的时候，他就不理我了。连打招呼都没有，以往都是他主动找我的，但最近都没有了。。。真搞不懂他
今天我也好惊讶哦。他既然有来上课耶！老实说，我心里真的好高兴哦~~~还以为他是来跑的，但原来他是来拍照的。不知道他今天拍得怎样？！真想看，但应该都跟以前一样好看吧？！我觉得今天我又做了一件很白痴的事。在食堂时，我和他都还算在附近。所以我特地跟那些干弟玩得比较亲，看他会不会吃醋？！但。。。那怎么可能啊？！现在回想起来，我哪个举动还蛮天真白痴的= =" 哈哈~~~
Saturday, February 20, 2010
Chinese New Year Week
This week is holiday week, because of chinese new year. So I have a week of holiday and I need to help my mom to clean the house, it's quite tired for that. I watched three chinese new year movie with my family this week. Jay Chou act quite well in this movie"True Legend". I love Jay Chou very much and I support him since I was a little kid. He is longest time that I support an idol among of my favourite idols. I still have three chinese new movie that I want to watch it. I can't wait anymore... hahaha~~~
I hate horlick because of his words. I don't knw whether am I right that I always sms to him, but I just want to be friend with him. Plus, I don't knw what's he thinking?! At first, he made me scared of him because his words and actions it made me felt he likes me. I think lk noticed my feeling and keep telling weihoe doesn't like me, but one day lk told me all the advantages about him. Of course, I asked him to stop cause I really not interested in him. I hate the words that he used, he is quite same with lk. Is it most of the boys are like that?! I told him what kind of boy I like, I thought it will break his heart but he is tougher than I thought. I really hate this kind of realtionship and it's complicated. Who can help me?! Haizzzzz...
I am worrying of one thing now. I read his blog without sign out my blog and I am not sure whether it has the record or not. When I read his blog, I forgot that I haven't sign out. I am really regret for that. Haizzzz~~~ I msn to him, he didn't reply me at all and I don't knw why?! The conlusion that I get is maybe he read my blog but I hope it won't happen. I don't understand why he doesn't want to reply me?! Is he afraids of me? I really need an answer for that, cause I want to be friend with him. I don't want he same with jl. I don't want to lose a friend again cause I really can't take it anymore.
I hate horlick because of his words. I don't knw whether am I right that I always sms to him, but I just want to be friend with him. Plus, I don't knw what's he thinking?! At first, he made me scared of him because his words and actions it made me felt he likes me. I think lk noticed my feeling and keep telling weihoe doesn't like me, but one day lk told me all the advantages about him. Of course, I asked him to stop cause I really not interested in him. I hate the words that he used, he is quite same with lk. Is it most of the boys are like that?! I told him what kind of boy I like, I thought it will break his heart but he is tougher than I thought. I really hate this kind of realtionship and it's complicated. Who can help me?! Haizzzzz...
I am worrying of one thing now. I read his blog without sign out my blog and I am not sure whether it has the record or not. When I read his blog, I forgot that I haven't sign out. I am really regret for that. Haizzzz~~~ I msn to him, he didn't reply me at all and I don't knw why?! The conlusion that I get is maybe he read my blog but I hope it won't happen. I don't understand why he doesn't want to reply me?! Is he afraids of me? I really need an answer for that, cause I want to be friend with him. I don't want he same with jl. I don't want to lose a friend again cause I really can't take it anymore.
Saturday, February 13, 2010
放不下，就是放不下
要我不去想念我的眼镜，真的很难，毕竟它给了我这么多宝贵的回忆。有些朋友还说什么旧的不去，新的不来每当我会想起那些回忆时，真的使我很高兴。无论结果变得如何都不重要，最重要的是过程。只要一想到过程，我就觉得结果变得怎样，都无所谓了。我好恨我自己，为什么我会把眼镜弄不见呢？！我明明是很保护他，很疼他，但始终还是不见了。。。
我有做错些什么吗？msn给他都不会回信的。只想问他一些事情，他都不肯回我吗？！我真的越来越不知道要怎样处理了。。。开始有点乱了，谁可以来帮帮我？！
我有做错些什么吗？msn给他都不会回信的。只想问他一些事情，他都不肯回我吗？！我真的越来越不知道要怎样处理了。。。开始有点乱了，谁可以来帮帮我？！
Friday, February 12, 2010
A Sad Day That I Never Had It Before
Today is the last day of school, because chinese new year around the corner already. So, my school is going to have a short vacation to celebrate it. By the way, my school celebrated chinese new year too and zhenen is the speaker. Waooo~~~ it's really made me suprised and I can't believe it's truth. He really changed a lot, but his speaking was not bad and it's funny.
At the same time, I lost my spec and I can't find it. After I noticed, I asked vanessa accompanied me to find it but still I can't find the spec even though I tried harder and harder. I cried in the class, yewkin, karwei and looisun noticed I was crying. At first, I tried to stop but I can't. I really feel sad that my spec lost, I love my spec very much and there was a lot of memory between jl and me. That's the happiest school life and the sweetness love that I never had it before, but now already gone forever and ever.
They asked what happened, vaneesa helped me to answer it. Karwei asked me to calm down and tried to think wherever place I have been, but I already found those place I have been but still I can't find it. I remember this morning I was with kim until we back to our own classes. I cried in the class since a period but the luckiest is a few of my classmates noticed I was crying.
Few days already that I didn't see him at school. I wander why was he absent? Did he sick or any other reason? I want to know it but I am not the one who suppose to ask. I miss him a lot but he is opposite of me, cause I am not the lucky girl who's he wants to care and love. I msn to him just now but he didn't reply. Do you knw that will break my heart? I lost jl, u and my spec. What am I going to lose next?! I am really afraid of that. Please... I don't want to lose anything again cause it's really breaks my heart deeply. I can't take it anymore for that.
At the same time, I lost my spec and I can't find it. After I noticed, I asked vanessa accompanied me to find it but still I can't find the spec even though I tried harder and harder. I cried in the class, yewkin, karwei and looisun noticed I was crying. At first, I tried to stop but I can't. I really feel sad that my spec lost, I love my spec very much and there was a lot of memory between jl and me. That's the happiest school life and the sweetness love that I never had it before, but now already gone forever and ever.
They asked what happened, vaneesa helped me to answer it. Karwei asked me to calm down and tried to think wherever place I have been, but I already found those place I have been but still I can't find it. I remember this morning I was with kim until we back to our own classes. I cried in the class since a period but the luckiest is a few of my classmates noticed I was crying.
Few days already that I didn't see him at school. I wander why was he absent? Did he sick or any other reason? I want to know it but I am not the one who suppose to ask. I miss him a lot but he is opposite of me, cause I am not the lucky girl who's he wants to care and love. I msn to him just now but he didn't reply. Do you knw that will break my heart? I lost jl, u and my spec. What am I going to lose next?! I am really afraid of that. Please... I don't want to lose anything again cause it's really breaks my heart deeply. I can't take it anymore for that.
Sunday, February 7, 2010
你的热情与靠近，只会让我陷得更深，更害怕
今天又有补课了。。。闷！今天还真的是蛮惊讶的一天。放学后，上了车，妈就跟我说，今天没跳舞，因为奶奶出事了。我吓了一跳，而且我妈还说可能会中风。我第一次见我爸将驾车，简直就是恐怖！我今天也没去跳舞，毕竟要送我奶奶进医院，还有拜祭我婆婆。前几天还瞒惨的，都在生病，现在还好咯。。。我还蛮希望他会来关心我，虽然心里已经很清楚地明白这是不可能发生的事情。
ml问我，lk是否知道我生病了？！我当然不想给他知道我生病了。毕竟他的靠近只会让我喜欢上他而已。星期四那天，我不知道他到底是故意的还是什么之类的。原本他只把书包放在我附近，结果转眼间他老早就已经把他的书包搬来我隔壁了。你的靠近只会让我感到害怕而已，谁叫你绯闻太多了。你都已经有了一个女友，为什么不好好珍惜呢？！我听人家说有人喜欢你，但我还蛮替这位女生感到悲哀。作为朋友的，只希望他没选错人咯。。。
他还是跟以往一样，没什变。最近他都跟一个女学长一起放学，心里的醋意又来了。明明都说好要放弃他了，但我内心的深处还是放不下他。有时我也搞不清楚自己想要什么和不要什么了。目前为止我们还是一句话都没说过，几乎连眼神交流都没有了。每次都尽量克制自己别注意，但还是失败了。虽然做不成情侣，但还是希望他稍微会注意到我。求求你。。。别把我当透明，就好了。。。难道这样的请求也办不到吗？！
ml问我，lk是否知道我生病了？！我当然不想给他知道我生病了。毕竟他的靠近只会让我喜欢上他而已。星期四那天，我不知道他到底是故意的还是什么之类的。原本他只把书包放在我附近，结果转眼间他老早就已经把他的书包搬来我隔壁了。你的靠近只会让我感到害怕而已，谁叫你绯闻太多了。你都已经有了一个女友，为什么不好好珍惜呢？！我听人家说有人喜欢你，但我还蛮替这位女生感到悲哀。作为朋友的，只希望他没选错人咯。。。
他还是跟以往一样，没什变。最近他都跟一个女学长一起放学，心里的醋意又来了。明明都说好要放弃他了，但我内心的深处还是放不下他。有时我也搞不清楚自己想要什么和不要什么了。目前为止我们还是一句话都没说过，几乎连眼神交流都没有了。每次都尽量克制自己别注意，但还是失败了。虽然做不成情侣，但还是希望他稍微会注意到我。求求你。。。别把我当透明，就好了。。。难道这样的请求也办不到吗？！
Monday, February 1, 2010
Need To Clean House... Tired But Fun
I need to help my parents to clean the house, but I slept until 1p.m only woke up...haha~~~ Then I had a lunch with my parents. After I cleaned the house, it's feel tired but fun cause I did a lot of exercises. Then we watched the hongkong drama, it's quite funny. We went to supermarket and I bought some snacks too. Of course we had a dinner at outside, but I don't like the dishes. Haizzzz... How picky am I?! haha!!!
I still need to clean my house tomorrow, cause new year coming soon. I am getting more excited, cause I am going to move a new and bigger room. By the way, I need to some ideas to decorate my new room. Tomorrow, I also need to finish those homework that teacher gave us. By the way, tomorrow no school for wilayah students, cause it's a holiday for wilayah only.
I can't see him at school again T^T. Now I only knew he was going to Titiwangsa to take some photo today. Normally I went to jog with my family at Titiwangsa every Sunday. Luckily, we all need to clean house this week so we cancelled the jogging. It's quite lucky for that...hahaha!!! But those photo that he took is quite nice. He really good in photography and I think he will become a phtographer... hehe~~~
I still need to clean my house tomorrow, cause new year coming soon. I am getting more excited, cause I am going to move a new and bigger room. By the way, I need to some ideas to decorate my new room. Tomorrow, I also need to finish those homework that teacher gave us. By the way, tomorrow no school for wilayah students, cause it's a holiday for wilayah only.
I can't see him at school again T^T. Now I only knew he was going to Titiwangsa to take some photo today. Normally I went to jog with my family at Titiwangsa every Sunday. Luckily, we all need to clean house this week so we cancelled the jogging. It's quite lucky for that...hahaha!!! But those photo that he took is quite nice. He really good in photography and I think he will become a phtographer... hehe~~~
Sunday, January 31, 2010
~~~安静的夜晚~~~
今天，我又很迟才睡了。虽然我知道迟睡对身体不好，但就是不觉得累。刚考完试，感觉超开心的(虽然只是第一个预考)。一考完试，老师就很快地给了我们许许多多的功课。学校的生活还不错，班上的同学还约了我去打球，可惜啊~~~我不能去，因为要帮我妈拜神，而且也没去跳舞。。。HAIZzzz
最近还蛮倒霉的。。。naruto借给人，却被搞到不像样。。。虽然那个人一直跟我道歉，但当我打开来检查时，却发现里面的cd都已经花了。。。那时候的我真的真的很气，也很心痛，几乎想打人。。。我问他为什么会变成这样，但他却说不知道。。。之前盒子的保护层被他意外的撕掉，我也就算了。。。但怎么一次比一次更离谱啊！！！cd花了，盒子也被撕掉了一小块会儿。。。他说他想跟我买那个dvd，我斩钉载铁地跟她说：“这套戏的本价是RM100，我不会减价！你回去想清楚到底要不要买！”除此之外补习时，我一点声音都不想出，而且他还是做我隔壁的朋友。我恨不得大大力的打他，凶凶的骂他。。。但都强破性的忍住了。。。
我家里漏水，但好漏不漏，偏漏在我刚油漆的新房。我把ps2之类的电器放在那儿，结果没想到却发生漏水事件。当我看到时，就立刻冲进去，把我的ps2搬走。辛亏那时我想上楼绑头发，发现的早，没有很严重；但我还没试那架ps2，所以不知道还能不能用。我拿出去抹，放在一边，好让他晒干。而且我不能将快搬进那新房间了，怕他还会漏水。只希望那架ps2还能用，要不然我会很心痛。。。
之前我传了一封我到现在都不知道该不该传的信息给lk。。。我跟他说，我希望他不要在学校将弄我了。毕竟我不想被人误会，况且ys还怀疑他是在追我，还是什么之类的烂猜测。ml一直跟我说，他并不是一个好情人，只因为他的举动看起来很花心？！之前我也是将觉得，但我对他已经有了别的看法。我对传绯闻是没什么，但我最害怕的就是跟一个有女友的男生传绯闻。自从健理那件事和kim那件事以后，我就很怕了。。。我真的不想再给那班八婆说我是第三者！
现在回想起来，我已经有一，两个星期，没找他聊天了但他也没找我。说实在的我还蛮希望我们变成情侣的，但已经不可能了。。。毕竟我不是他的那一杯茶，况且我们的性格还蛮有差别的。现在的我也不清楚自己是否真的那么喜欢他了？！我真的很希望我们可以变回以前那时候，至少他还肯做弄我。。。
最近还蛮倒霉的。。。naruto借给人，却被搞到不像样。。。虽然那个人一直跟我道歉，但当我打开来检查时，却发现里面的cd都已经花了。。。那时候的我真的真的很气，也很心痛，几乎想打人。。。我问他为什么会变成这样，但他却说不知道。。。之前盒子的保护层被他意外的撕掉，我也就算了。。。但怎么一次比一次更离谱啊！！！cd花了，盒子也被撕掉了一小块会儿。。。他说他想跟我买那个dvd，我斩钉载铁地跟她说：“这套戏的本价是RM100，我不会减价！你回去想清楚到底要不要买！”除此之外补习时，我一点声音都不想出，而且他还是做我隔壁的朋友。我恨不得大大力的打他，凶凶的骂他。。。但都强破性的忍住了。。。
我家里漏水，但好漏不漏，偏漏在我刚油漆的新房。我把ps2之类的电器放在那儿，结果没想到却发生漏水事件。当我看到时，就立刻冲进去，把我的ps2搬走。辛亏那时我想上楼绑头发，发现的早，没有很严重；但我还没试那架ps2，所以不知道还能不能用。我拿出去抹，放在一边，好让他晒干。而且我不能将快搬进那新房间了，怕他还会漏水。只希望那架ps2还能用，要不然我会很心痛。。。
之前我传了一封我到现在都不知道该不该传的信息给lk。。。我跟他说，我希望他不要在学校将弄我了。毕竟我不想被人误会，况且ys还怀疑他是在追我，还是什么之类的烂猜测。ml一直跟我说，他并不是一个好情人，只因为他的举动看起来很花心？！之前我也是将觉得，但我对他已经有了别的看法。我对传绯闻是没什么，但我最害怕的就是跟一个有女友的男生传绯闻。自从健理那件事和kim那件事以后，我就很怕了。。。我真的不想再给那班八婆说我是第三者！
现在回想起来，我已经有一，两个星期，没找他聊天了但他也没找我。说实在的我还蛮希望我们变成情侣的，但已经不可能了。。。毕竟我不是他的那一杯茶，况且我们的性格还蛮有差别的。现在的我也不清楚自己是否真的那么喜欢他了？！我真的很希望我们可以变回以前那时候，至少他还肯做弄我。。。
Sunday, January 24, 2010
~~~A Tired Day~~~
Yesterday was Saturday, but still need to go to school. It's quite fun cause I chated with a lot of friends. Haizzz~~~ the worst is teachers gave a lot of homework during the exam. I am going to cry...wuwuwu~~~ After that, I went to dancing class and I danced 3 hours non-stop. Danced with the lyrics,it's harder than I thought. It is a new challenge to me, but I like it very much. During the evening, I had a dinner with my family. We ate steamfood and I ate a lot...haha~~~ Now, I need to keep fit...wuwuwu
Today is Sunday. I am going to move in a new room, actually it's my brother room, but he moved to a new house since last year. They are painting my new room now. I hope they can finish as soon as possible^^ I can't wait to see my new room.
Haizzzz... He absent to school on Friday and Saturday. Few days ago, he was sick but I didn't ask him anything this time even though I am care of him. He is quite easy to get sick, but I can't help him anything. I want give up and stop thinking about him, so I always keep away myself from him. But still it's useless, I am still caring of him. However I should concentrate in my studies now, because I need to face a lot of exam recently. Haizzz
Today is Sunday. I am going to move in a new room, actually it's my brother room, but he moved to a new house since last year. They are painting my new room now. I hope they can finish as soon as possible^^ I can't wait to see my new room.
Haizzzz... He absent to school on Friday and Saturday. Few days ago, he was sick but I didn't ask him anything this time even though I am care of him. He is quite easy to get sick, but I can't help him anything. I want give up and stop thinking about him, so I always keep away myself from him. But still it's useless, I am still caring of him. However I should concentrate in my studies now, because I need to face a lot of exam recently. Haizzz
Saturday, January 16, 2010
不想打了。。。累了~~~
sy~~~好感谢你哦。。。你说的对，我不应该将子去看他，况且我已经被他拒绝啦。。。原来我不是那么喜欢他的，我没想过我把他的照片删掉了，只剩几张而已。。。我发觉自从我跟他告白了以后，觉得整个人都轻松了，但在学校我们还是没有讲话。。。
最近受的伤太多了。。。前几天只想提醒lk记得拿书给我，没想到那死人头既然在开我们玩笑，说得我们很暧昧。。。你这个玩笑到底要开几次啊！你已经给了我伤口，难道还要撒盐吗？！你知不知道我的伤口一直在流血啊！
我不想打了，好想退社，但kim又说别为了sl他们而退社，你将说是没错。。。但我气的不是因为这个，而是因为。。。我不懂要怎样说。。。那句话有点伤，只会令我更想退社而已。。。抱歉挂了你的电话，现在回想起来那是我第一次挂你电话耶。。。我不会令你难做，如果sl要你跟他，那就跟他吧，不用管我。。。
每次在我最需要人陪的时候，都没有人在。。。惟有空虚的音乐与咸咸的泪水在陪伴着我而已。。。好希望有人可以借我肩旁，也可以让我在他怀里大哭一场。。。
最近受的伤太多了。。。前几天只想提醒lk记得拿书给我，没想到那死人头既然在开我们玩笑，说得我们很暧昧。。。你这个玩笑到底要开几次啊！你已经给了我伤口，难道还要撒盐吗？！你知不知道我的伤口一直在流血啊！
我不想打了，好想退社，但kim又说别为了sl他们而退社，你将说是没错。。。但我气的不是因为这个，而是因为。。。我不懂要怎样说。。。那句话有点伤，只会令我更想退社而已。。。抱歉挂了你的电话，现在回想起来那是我第一次挂你电话耶。。。我不会令你难做，如果sl要你跟他，那就跟他吧，不用管我。。。
每次在我最需要人陪的时候，都没有人在。。。惟有空虚的音乐与咸咸的泪水在陪伴着我而已。。。好希望有人可以借我肩旁，也可以让我在他怀里大哭一场。。。
Friday, January 8, 2010
School Days Of First Week
A week already past... I am quite happy this week cause I am having a party on sunday(10 of Jan) and my sis and I birthday the next day... haha~~~ I think I am going to buy her a special present seem she is my little cute sis^^ By the way, we are going to exchange present too.
HAIZzz... even though we saw each other at school, we also won't talk to each other or look at each other. Sy said we are weird when we met or near by, we won't said hello or anything. I thought he is the one who will avoid to see me, but I never thought before the person is me not him. When I saw him, I ran away and sometimes I don't even look at him when he was around me.
I don't knw why?! I prefer look at him from a far of distance, maybe I was timid at the moment... Today, lk and him are quite weird. Both of them keep looking that side that where I sat this morning, but still don't knw who are they looking?! Hope sometimes he will notice me that I always care about him...
By the way, my birthday is coming soon~~~ I wish I may get straight A in PMR and he will talk to me at school...
HAIZzz... even though we saw each other at school, we also won't talk to each other or look at each other. Sy said we are weird when we met or near by, we won't said hello or anything. I thought he is the one who will avoid to see me, but I never thought before the person is me not him. When I saw him, I ran away and sometimes I don't even look at him when he was around me.
I don't knw why?! I prefer look at him from a far of distance, maybe I was timid at the moment... Today, lk and him are quite weird. Both of them keep looking that side that where I sat this morning, but still don't knw who are they looking?! Hope sometimes he will notice me that I always care about him...
By the way, my birthday is coming soon~~~ I wish I may get straight A in PMR and he will talk to me at school...
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